Saturday, March 8, 2008

i just woke up and..

I AM DAMN FRIGGIN TIRED!:(

but yesterday was damn fun!took super alot of photos.

battled alot, lost terribly.but we didn't lose without af fight okay!haha.

im losing my voice even though i drank water before i went to ice cream land.

anyway am still super tired, like brain dead i don't want to move away from my bed.

zoo was really fun, but could have been better if everybody came/came back.really!

its all in the name of fun and games.we've all known each other for so long and definitely much more better than this(: like come on okay?

white tigers are like the most beautiful living breathing moving creature on earth.very very pretty.prettier than women.like you can stare at them and really observe them, they're that beautiful!white tiger is animal of the day.haha((:

anyways, gwen and tiong kiat is really sweet together(: really happy that tiong kiat has a girlfriend.don't know why but i feel like i see tiong kiat grow up.. haha.in my heart, he's always be a little boy..whose husband material!haha(: xin and me use to discuss and dissect who is husband material in class and he's always number 1 on our list.he's a nice boy, good for you gwen(:

okay you can say i don't understand.i don't understand as much as you do.

maybe i cannot stand it.cos i never felt it?haha.. i don't know really.just really felt like i've wasted 3 years of my life for nothing gained but anger,sadness and endless disappointments.now looking back, i just feel such release.i feel like my responsibility is fufiled.i know im not suppose to feel this way, but i was really tired and unhappy.the happy times only happened cos i wanted them to happen, you can say i had to do everything to make them happen for me.imagine a direct copycat for a birthday present, how happy would you feel?no heart at all right?shrugs.

i just want to stop taking care of everyone.and let someone take care of me instead.

stefanie says i need a older boyfriend.how can!everyone i know is about my age.

its a very confusing feeling.

a lot of times i need someone there but i don't need the commitment now.

a lot of times i see everyone being in pairs, and i secretly wished i had someone too.

but minus the arguments and petty fights.

the process is what matters, however it ends if you had put your heart in it and know very clearly the other person has as well.that's good enough.

i enjoy doing things for the people i love(: seeing them smile makes me smile.don't know why.haha

boyfriends are not found,

boyfriends just happen(:

what we could have been, 1:19 PM.