Saturday, March 29, 2008
i am a oyster.
i got a daisy today, i ate a bitter slice of orange, i ate cheesecake.
i haven't gotten a flower for forever.
my favourite flower for now is;daisy
makes me happy(:
i lost my usb wire for my sony!so i can't upload the photo.the daisy is like how cute!
but its stem kinda like broke into 2, cos my stupid dog was too friggin excited to see me.
so i dumped it.but i loved it(:
what we could have been, 1:14 AM.
Friday, March 28, 2008
obviously its evitable to camwhore with someone you have a thing for.
i can't wait to say, im so over it.
because for now.
im still so not.
its been like 6 days since saturday and im still grumpy still, a little, but im going to be fine.
i know it.
you know why?cos its allowance day tomorrow!
money is king; as proudly quoted by ahemBFF.
it probably really is.and without money you supposedly can't get married, and then no one would get their daughter's protrait inked.
you're like how cute!(:
compressing zoo's photos into a zipped file, which is like taking forever cos all the files are like 1000 plus kb.haha i think on that day we probably took like 200 over photos.the amount gives the status, mother of camwhores.ho of hoes.hahaha.
zipping it for gou gou.who i just realised called me a spoiler drunkard in his past entry.bitch!
i didn't for it to happen, i just kept losing what!hahaha.
anyhoo,
i slept at like 4am.and dragged up my ass up at 830am to go to school for recording which was damn nerve wrecking.it sucked a bit cos uncle lim says im mumbling.which i swear i didn't.
i even thought i sounded too fake cos i pronounced every single syllable.but whatever.its done and im over it.so like one part of assignment down.3 more to go!
i miss school again.
i never do homework when im in JTSS):
this sucks.
after recording, came home.idled for like forever, watched an epi of tai chi master on crunchy roll.its getting boring.and i think myolie wu is a very bad actress.either that or thats her persona in the series.but i think its probably her.went to nap and then idled some more, went to walk en and linds and thats probably about it.my life.okaay, what life?!?
tomorrow is advertising class.im like damn lazy to go.haha
i pon wednesday's class.so i can't pon anymore.
i don't want to be boycotted.
even though i know that will never happen
cos i've got no b.o and i don't tei-ar(?)hurhur.
lao ji weihong lost his keys.its not in all of my bags.
if it was then good,
i hope he finds it.
im like queen of the missing keys, i lose like one set every year.
i hate it when mama shows me the black face when i tell her i lose keys cos she's going to say:"good, let the robbers come in and have fun."
which is a good way to make anyone pissy.
bloody hell.its still compressing.
im like mabok already.
i can't wait to say, im so over it.
because for now.
im still so not.
its been like 6 days since saturday and im still grumpy still, a little, but im going to be fine.
i know it.
you know why?cos its allowance day tomorrow!
money is king; as proudly quoted by ahem
it probably really is.and without money you supposedly can't get married, and then no one would get their daughter's protrait inked.
you're like how cute!(:
compressing zoo's photos into a zipped file, which is like taking forever cos all the files are like 1000 plus kb.haha i think on that day we probably took like 200 over photos.the amount gives the status, mother of camwhores.ho of hoes.hahaha.
zipping it for gou gou.who i just realised called me a spoiler drunkard in his past entry.bitch!
i didn't for it to happen, i just kept losing what!hahaha.
anyhoo,
i slept at like 4am.and dragged up my ass up at 830am to go to school for recording which was damn nerve wrecking.it sucked a bit cos uncle lim says im mumbling.which i swear i didn't.
i even thought i sounded too fake cos i pronounced every single syllable.but whatever.its done and im over it.so like one part of assignment down.3 more to go!
i miss school again.
i never do homework when im in JTSS):
this sucks.
after recording, came home.idled for like forever, watched an epi of tai chi master on crunchy roll.its getting boring.and i think myolie wu is a very bad actress.either that or thats her persona in the series.but i think its probably her.went to nap and then idled some more, went to walk en and linds and thats probably about it.my life.okaay, what life?!?
tomorrow is advertising class.im like damn lazy to go.haha
i pon wednesday's class.so i can't pon anymore.
i don't want to be boycotted.
even though i know that will never happen
cos i've got no b.o and i don't tei-ar(?)hurhur.
lao ji weihong lost his keys.its not in all of my bags.
if it was then good,
i hope he finds it.
im like queen of the missing keys, i lose like one set every year.
i hate it when mama shows me the black face when i tell her i lose keys cos she's going to say:"good, let the robbers come in and have fun."
which is a good way to make anyone pissy.
bloody hell.its still compressing.
im like mabok already.
what we could have been, 1:23 AM.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
CB CAT PEE ON MY BED!NOW MY MATTRESS SMELLS LIKE CAT PISS!
what we could have been, 12:12 AM.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
):
went to k with jie xin today, thought i would feel better.
instead i felt worse.
i sang sibeh emotional songs, and that's probably the reason why.
though it was good being able to tell her everything, every single thing with holding back cos i know she won't judge me.
feeling really lousy.
lousy lousy lousy.
small stuffs like that amounts and snowball along with the thoughts you cannot control, and it will create the most dramatic ripples.
i thinkbff was right all along, i should open my eyes BIG BIG and see who is the person really is before i go on to love.
never listen.sigh
all the effort, the feelings, the anticipating of getting something of it.
now is getting of nothing from nothing, the something was what i imagined it to be.
its all me.
nothing to give up actually.i just have to stop doing what im doing.
peng you bi qing ren hai si xin ta di.right?
the only highlight today isbff talk to me less fierce.very happy.
but he still never give chance
i can only keep hoping.
went to k with jie xin today, thought i would feel better.
instead i felt worse.
i sang sibeh emotional songs, and that's probably the reason why.
though it was good being able to tell her everything, every single thing with holding back cos i know she won't judge me.
feeling really lousy.
lousy lousy lousy.
small stuffs like that amounts and snowball along with the thoughts you cannot control, and it will create the most dramatic ripples.
i think
never listen.sigh
all the effort, the feelings, the anticipating of getting something of it.
now is getting of nothing from nothing, the something was what i imagined it to be.
its all me.
nothing to give up actually.i just have to stop doing what im doing.
peng you bi qing ren hai si xin ta di.right?
the only highlight today is
but he still never give chance
i can only keep hoping.
what we could have been, 1:22 AM.
Monday, March 24, 2008
bbq is not worth mentioning.
what i want to say, can't be said here anyway.
what i want to say, can't be said here anyway.
what we could have been, 1:23 AM.
Friday, March 21, 2008
shalom!
blessed good friday!(:
on this particular friday.it is very the boring.
suppose to go xiao qiang house and play like now, but mama had to nag nag nag at me.
mama:" tomorrow you're going be out the whole day already, you still want to go out today.go and do your work go clean the cat litter go keep your slipper later people steal.blah blah blah.
me: "tskkk", (under breathe), "orh orh orh."
thats why im at home now.
so since its a public holiday and everyone is out.
i shall make her day and be her good daughter.
i think we're going vivo for dinner or something even though im damn broke.
haha my grandma was saying: " ah na bu yao chu men de la, ta dou mei you qian liao."
then mama said: " shua ka lor."
wah happy!got chance buy new clothes.
haha i think she's in high spirits or something or she just got enough sleep.
i hope its a lucky day for meeee.haha
woke up at an alarming 8:30am today.
i don't even know why i woke up so early for, i think it was the stupid dogs barking at me for one reason or another.
but they're alot better now cos they're free to roam around the house, so they bark lesser cos they're not as excited to be out of the play pan like they use to be.even though they still go too close to the cats sometimes but i think the lot are getting use to this two bitches.
which is goooood!
than brought them to pet lover's centre for grooming.linds look very ugly now.she looks like she went through extreme dieting.
en still looks the same.i think they cheat our money.cos en doesn't look like she even went to the groomers.i think maybe cos nobody brings jack russels for grooming.haha =x
talked to her today):
she was so.. sigh.different?
so cold.
maybe she's really busy with many many things going on in her life.
nothing lasts forever?
money doesn't.so probably and definitely not love, friendship, peace or happiness?
i really don't want to believe this.
maybe its obligation when we say we want to meet up.i really do want to meet up.
even for a simple meal where we can just update each other about our lives, which is so different now.
i still remember how much i felt her love for me, when i saw her crying because she saw me so upset over my o level results.
she didn't want to see me sad or unhappy.
seeing me this way didn't make her happy too.
what happened along the way?
really just want to see her and give her a big big hug and make her promise me that this friendship will never ever fade away.
im so easily affected by the people around me, especially those i love):
i don't want to lose you.
i really wish you can come tomorrow.sigh
moving on.
1 more day to bbq, damn hyped!
trust me.there will be a shit load of photos(:
nothing makes me happier than having fun with people i love!(:
blessed good friday!(:
on this particular friday.it is very the boring.
suppose to go xiao qiang house and play like now, but mama had to nag nag nag at me.
mama:" tomorrow you're going be out the whole day already, you still want to go out today.go and do your work go clean the cat litter go keep your slipper later people steal.blah blah blah.
me: "tskkk", (under breathe), "orh orh orh."
thats why im at home now.
so since its a public holiday and everyone is out.
i shall make her day and be her good daughter.
i think we're going vivo for dinner or something even though im damn broke.
haha my grandma was saying: " ah na bu yao chu men de la, ta dou mei you qian liao."
then mama said: " shua ka lor."
wah happy!got chance buy new clothes.
haha i think she's in high spirits or something or she just got enough sleep.
i hope its a lucky day for meeee.haha
woke up at an alarming 8:30am today.
i don't even know why i woke up so early for, i think it was the stupid dogs barking at me for one reason or another.
but they're alot better now cos they're free to roam around the house, so they bark lesser cos they're not as excited to be out of the play pan like they use to be.even though they still go too close to the cats sometimes but i think the lot are getting use to this two bitches.
which is goooood!
than brought them to pet lover's centre for grooming.linds look very ugly now.she looks like she went through extreme dieting.
en still looks the same.i think they cheat our money.cos en doesn't look like she even went to the groomers.i think maybe cos nobody brings jack russels for grooming.haha =x
talked to her today):
she was so.. sigh.different?
so cold.
maybe she's really busy with many many things going on in her life.
nothing lasts forever?
money doesn't.so probably and definitely not love, friendship, peace or happiness?
i really don't want to believe this.
maybe its obligation when we say we want to meet up.i really do want to meet up.
even for a simple meal where we can just update each other about our lives, which is so different now.
i still remember how much i felt her love for me, when i saw her crying because she saw me so upset over my o level results.
she didn't want to see me sad or unhappy.
seeing me this way didn't make her happy too.
what happened along the way?
really just want to see her and give her a big big hug and make her promise me that this friendship will never ever fade away.
im so easily affected by the people around me, especially those i love):
i don't want to lose you.
i really wish you can come tomorrow.sigh
moving on.
1 more day to bbq, damn hyped!
trust me.there will be a shit load of photos(:
nothing makes me happier than having fun with people i love!(:
what we could have been, 3:27 PM.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
pon half of class again!(:
i really don't enjoy listening to sivam's lecture.but very therapeutic makes you relax until you fall asleep.hahaha
anyway school assignment due dates are all very close together.so quite a lot of things i have to get started with!SIAN.im starting on sivam's one soon.like right after this, then there's still the tv script to do and many other things, just very very packed.
but anyway, there's only 2 individual projects.both which is friggin boring.like what! watch news and read newspaper for one week than write how you can improve them.NEWS okay.not entertainment news..not yu le bai fen bai!haha(:
i miss discussing about bai fen bai with xin and bert in school.haha we use to rush home to watch almost every single day.damn fun.both of you are dearly missed by me!):
really really miss secondary school life.so care free,so happy pay school fees to go school and play.i really don't know how many million times i must emphasize about how much i miss jtss.haha but more than that i miss the people!and im glad most of them are still in my life, cos without any one of them it would be totally different!
think this is going to be a super long post.haha
yesterday was a happy day, but at the same time a fucked up day.
its fucked up as in knn cb fucked up type.can't understand why i care so much either, or probably im just damn sensitive.too much inhibted fears of doing too much and doing too little saying too much or not even saying anything at all,probably?i guess): you've gotten the upper hand, now you can gladly walk all over me.i don't mind.do anything.i won't rebuke you or stop you.cos i can't.i don't know why too.its all my fault its all my fault.is it?):
luckily the feeling went away quickly cos of all the love and support and encouragement from all 3 of them.thank you y'all!you're loved loved loved!they're like positive until they need to admit themselves inside imh.
you also.little things you say make me smile even though they may mean nothing to you, but they mean alot to me.
listening to jay chou sing tian tian de helps also.always makes me feel happy which leaves me smiling alot(: i think im in the club.hahaha!
counting down to the days to saturday!(: its going to be a blast.
the only time to unwind and just play.its been awhile!
my dear meng tsun!
baobei it would have even more fun with you!
but i can tell how much he means to you, and how much you care for him.
to the extent of even flying back to talk things out with him.
i understand your pain.i know how xin ku it is for you.
wo dong,wo duo dong.
don't give up without a fight!don't lose him.you must jia you jia you jia you!
he better be worth the $1000/-! haha
going to order the food tomorrow!omg!this is so exciting.
we're going to play catching in west coast park.HAHAHA(:
im still happy.
i must not be affected!
i must stay strong,
and smile smile smile
yi ding yao jia you wor.(OMG JU!HAHAHAHA)
i think this is what they call; bliss(:
bliss /blɪs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[blis] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
supreme happiness; utter joy or contentment: wedded bliss.
2.
Theology. the joy of heaven.
3.
heaven; paradise: the road to eternal bliss.
4.
Archaic. a cause of great joy or happiness. —Idiom
5.
Slang. bliss out,
a.
to experience bliss or euphoria: Just give them some bean sprouts and a little tofu and they bliss out.
b.
to cause to become blissful or euphoric: a recording guaranteed to bliss out every Mozart fan.
i really don't enjoy listening to sivam's lecture.but very therapeutic makes you relax until you fall asleep.hahaha
anyway school assignment due dates are all very close together.so quite a lot of things i have to get started with!SIAN.im starting on sivam's one soon.like right after this, then there's still the tv script to do and many other things, just very very packed.
but anyway, there's only 2 individual projects.both which is friggin boring.like what! watch news and read newspaper for one week than write how you can improve them.NEWS okay.not entertainment news..not yu le bai fen bai!haha(:
i miss discussing about bai fen bai with xin and bert in school.haha we use to rush home to watch almost every single day.damn fun.both of you are dearly missed by me!):
really really miss secondary school life.so care free,so happy pay school fees to go school and play.i really don't know how many million times i must emphasize about how much i miss jtss.haha but more than that i miss the people!and im glad most of them are still in my life, cos without any one of them it would be totally different!
think this is going to be a super long post.haha
yesterday was a happy day, but at the same time a fucked up day.
its fucked up as in knn cb fucked up type.can't understand why i care so much either, or probably im just damn sensitive.too much inhibted fears of doing too much and doing too little saying too much or not even saying anything at all,probably?i guess): you've gotten the upper hand, now you can gladly walk all over me.i don't mind.do anything.i won't rebuke you or stop you.cos i can't.i don't know why too.its all my fault its all my fault.is it?):
luckily the feeling went away quickly cos of all the love and support and encouragement from all 3 of them.thank you y'all!you're loved loved loved!they're like positive until they need to admit themselves inside imh.
you also.little things you say make me smile even though they may mean nothing to you, but they mean alot to me.
listening to jay chou sing tian tian de helps also.always makes me feel happy which leaves me smiling alot(: i think im in the club.hahaha!
counting down to the days to saturday!(: its going to be a blast.
the only time to unwind and just play.its been awhile!
my dear meng tsun!
baobei it would have even more fun with you!
but i can tell how much he means to you, and how much you care for him.
to the extent of even flying back to talk things out with him.
i understand your pain.i know how xin ku it is for you.
wo dong,wo duo dong.
don't give up without a fight!don't lose him.you must jia you jia you jia you!
he better be worth the $1000/-! haha
going to order the food tomorrow!omg!this is so exciting.
we're going to play catching in west coast park.HAHAHA(:
im still happy.
i must not be affected!
i must stay strong,
and smile smile smile
yi ding yao jia you wor.(OMG JU!HAHAHAHA)
i think this is what they call; bliss(:
bliss /blɪs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[blis] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
supreme happiness; utter joy or contentment: wedded bliss.
2.
Theology. the joy of heaven.
3.
heaven; paradise: the road to eternal bliss.
4.
Archaic. a cause of great joy or happiness. —Idiom
5.
Slang. bliss out,
a.
to experience bliss or euphoria: Just give them some bean sprouts and a little tofu and they bliss out.
b.
to cause to become blissful or euphoric: a recording guaranteed to bliss out every Mozart fan.
what we could have been, 12:13 PM.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
i missed you more than a bit(:
what we could have been, 7:22 PM.
Monday, March 17, 2008
i love sunny days.and the smell of sunshine on my bedsheets and pillow case(:
makes me very happy!haha
very excited for this saturday's bbq, first time organising too!haha(: so really just feeling my way around this whole thing.im like over-seeing everything.but its whats exciting i think im like the most excited out of everyone.haha
the pit's at west coast park, drop by to steal our food if you want okay!
really hope everyone can come!its all night anyway.it will surely be a blast!no valid reason not to turn up anyway.hmm.
super tired today.i didn't even do anything.haha i slept almost directly after i reach home from school.haha.and the stupid ass dogs bite apart the ONLY ADAPTOR left in the house for the frikkin laptop.and now im damn scared to use my laptop.cos the battery life is only half!and if never buy the adaptor asap than i cannot use anymore and some more assignment due soon!mama say she's not going to pay for another one cos its my fault that i leave my things around but its so not in the dogs way!they take out to play themself):
stupid dogs.
my room looks like a kindergarten.
makes me very happy!haha
very excited for this saturday's bbq, first time organising too!haha(: so really just feeling my way around this whole thing.im like over-seeing everything.but its whats exciting i think im like the most excited out of everyone.haha
the pit's at west coast park, drop by to steal our food if you want okay!
really hope everyone can come!its all night anyway.it will surely be a blast!no valid reason not to turn up anyway.hmm.
super tired today.i didn't even do anything.haha i slept almost directly after i reach home from school.haha.and the stupid ass dogs bite apart the ONLY ADAPTOR left in the house for the frikkin laptop.and now im damn scared to use my laptop.cos the battery life is only half!and if never buy the adaptor asap than i cannot use anymore and some more assignment due soon!mama say she's not going to pay for another one cos its my fault that i leave my things around but its so not in the dogs way!they take out to play themself):
stupid dogs.
my room looks like a kindergarten.
what we could have been, 11:52 PM.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
how long is this cold war between us going to last?i'm really sick of it, and i think i've done enough to show you how much our friendship means to me and how much i want things to go back the way the were before.
the feeling just really sucks.
and i thought you understand me the best?
the more i try to explain to you, the more the misunderstanding deepens, the more i try to stop figuring out what happened, the more guilty i make myself feel probably for things i did&did not do, the more i try to stop thinking about it, the more i do, the more i try to move on the more i find myself spinning in circles.
i can say you're childish, you're petty, you're annoying, you're ugly, you're not funny, you're revengful.
you know i don't mean it.
cos you're still my best friend.
i don't think its ever going to be any better, in a loooooooooooooooooong time.
i don't want us to become acquaintances.
take your time friend, im ready when you are.
the feeling just really sucks.
and i thought you understand me the best?
the more i try to explain to you, the more the misunderstanding deepens, the more i try to stop figuring out what happened, the more guilty i make myself feel probably for things i did&did not do, the more i try to stop thinking about it, the more i do, the more i try to move on the more i find myself spinning in circles.
i can say you're childish, you're petty, you're annoying, you're ugly, you're not funny, you're revengful.
you know i don't mean it.
cos you're still my best friend.
i don't think its ever going to be any better, in a loooooooooooooooooong time.
i don't want us to become acquaintances.
take your time friend, im ready when you are.
what we could have been, 5:24 PM.
): tamade!
never pass skin check, cannot be SIA GIRL anymore!haha.
think its cos of my scars on my lower arm, near the wrist.they're like quite dark actually, i scald myself at my last job at the bakery.but i really really loved working there.so it sorta didn't matter much than.haha.
and the kebaya is like 3/4 sleeve so yeah.
that means i never got to round 2!haha.
but anyhoo.surprisingly wasn't as upset as i expected myself to be.
study lor.
now i need a part time job.really im damn frikking broke.i've got 3 dollars left to my name.
i want to work!
never pass skin check, cannot be SIA GIRL anymore!haha.
think its cos of my scars on my lower arm, near the wrist.they're like quite dark actually, i scald myself at my last job at the bakery.but i really really loved working there.so it sorta didn't matter much than.haha.
and the kebaya is like 3/4 sleeve so yeah.
that means i never got to round 2!haha.
but anyhoo.surprisingly wasn't as upset as i expected myself to be.
study lor.
now i need a part time job.really im damn frikking broke.i've got 3 dollars left to my name.
i want to work!
what we could have been, 3:59 PM.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
曲：周杰倫
詞：方文山
OPENING OS:巨炮:哎唷!小朋友...你這是...你這是玩這什麼東西啊?
jay:扯鈴呀...
巨炮:扯鈴?
jay:嗯...
巨炮:怎麼聲音好像不大對呀?
jay:什麼聲音?
巨炮:我說你講話的聲音啊...
兩人： 呵呵呵...
天气 冷的让人生闷气
火气 我沮丧的很生气
空气 太糟需要有氧气
太多假义气一想就气
敲门 敲敲门
基本礼貌叩要先问
离开也不随手关灯
生活习惯真有够混
敲门 敲敲门
简单动作叩也不等
你看来虽不像坏蛋
但做事做人却很蠢
你像一团沼气
影响我的士气 损我的英气
又那么神气
说话的语气 败坏了风气
我不想为你为你白花了力气
那么会扯去扯铃
扯多你就会上瘾
扯你最善变的表情
我的解释请你务必要听
那么会扯去扯铃
却扯不出个命运
扯你最善变的表情
嘿你这样说我有一点伤心
不停犯错 不停推拖
养了一堆籍口 等它成熟
前一秒说是朋友 后一秒诬赖我
别再跟我哈啦 我不是个傻瓜
说谎就要付出代价
是应有的惩罚
别再跟我哈啦 你被当成笑话
自己造成的那尴尬 我也没有办法
ENDING OS:
巨炮:呵...瞎扯...這個...
this is like the theme song; when i heard what stef said to me, about what he said about me.
it fits perfectly.
詞：方文山
OPENING OS:巨炮:哎唷!小朋友...你這是...你這是玩這什麼東西啊?
jay:扯鈴呀...
巨炮:扯鈴?
jay:嗯...
巨炮:怎麼聲音好像不大對呀?
jay:什麼聲音?
巨炮:我說你講話的聲音啊...
兩人： 呵呵呵...
天气 冷的让人生闷气
火气 我沮丧的很生气
空气 太糟需要有氧气
太多假义气一想就气
敲门 敲敲门
基本礼貌叩要先问
离开也不随手关灯
生活习惯真有够混
敲门 敲敲门
简单动作叩也不等
你看来虽不像坏蛋
但做事做人却很蠢
你像一团沼气
影响我的士气 损我的英气
又那么神气
说话的语气 败坏了风气
我不想为你为你白花了力气
那么会扯去扯铃
扯多你就会上瘾
扯你最善变的表情
我的解释请你务必要听
那么会扯去扯铃
却扯不出个命运
扯你最善变的表情
嘿你这样说我有一点伤心
不停犯错 不停推拖
养了一堆籍口 等它成熟
前一秒说是朋友 后一秒诬赖我
别再跟我哈啦 我不是个傻瓜
说谎就要付出代价
是应有的惩罚
别再跟我哈啦 你被当成笑话
自己造成的那尴尬 我也没有办法
ENDING OS:
巨炮:呵...瞎扯...這個...
this is like the theme song; when i heard what stef said to me, about what he said about me.
it fits perfectly.
what we could have been, 1:46 AM.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
i really don't like rainy days at all.
its sucks like shit!): spoiler shit!so wet and gloomy.
this whole week has been raining like non-stop.damn it!
im sitting on my bed eating expired craisins.dried cranberries which i never eat.
but just had to sudden urge to.it taste like grapes.haha
yeah yeah i know anti oxidants good for me!(:
i think im damn good.i slept for less than 5 hours before heading to school and im still awake now.
im so going to nap i tell you.i can feel a headache coming up.
3 more days to SIA walk-in interview at sheraton hotel.
hurhur
not as hyped as when jayne just told me about it.was like damn exciting haha
maybe i would feel the butterflies fluttering back on sunday morning.
going with ah ju(:
if i get through like every single round;
im so going home to burn my books.
i never want to study again.
bo sim already.
if not):
than do i have a choice?get the fucking degree and please her.
damn it lah.HAHAHHAHA my heart flying away with SQ.okay cheesy!
i like fair boys.i don't know why they look clean.
okay good night.
its sucks like shit!): spoiler shit!so wet and gloomy.
this whole week has been raining like non-stop.damn it!
im sitting on my bed eating expired craisins.dried cranberries which i never eat.
but just had to sudden urge to.it taste like grapes.haha
yeah yeah i know anti oxidants good for me!(:
i think im damn good.i slept for less than 5 hours before heading to school and im still awake now.
im so going to nap i tell you.i can feel a headache coming up.
3 more days to SIA walk-in interview at sheraton hotel.
hurhur
not as hyped as when jayne just told me about it.was like damn exciting haha
maybe i would feel the butterflies fluttering back on sunday morning.
going with ah ju(:
if i get through like every single round;
im so going home to burn my books.
i never want to study again.
bo sim already.
if not):
than do i have a choice?get the fucking degree and please her.
damn it lah.HAHAHHAHA my heart flying away with SQ.okay cheesy!
i like fair boys.i don't know why they look clean.
okay good night.
what we could have been, 2:49 PM.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
happy happy happy!
even though .. not very nice to meeeeeee
i can't believe im so easily contented(:
happy happy happy!
even though .. not very nice to meeeeeee
i can't believe im so easily contented(:
what we could have been, 5:50 PM.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
wish list(:
1. agnes b bracelet
2. t-shirts
3. day dresses
4. agnes b purse!
5. sashimi
6. saba fish makes me happy
7. that it could stop raining
8. shortssssssssss
9. that i will never have to study again
10. to be happy every single day(:
1. agnes b bracelet
2. t-shirts
3. day dresses
4. agnes b purse!
5. sashimi
6. saba fish makes me happy
7. that it could stop raining
8. shortssssssssss
9. that i will never have to study again
10. to be happy every single day(:
what we could have been, 2:50 PM.
anyhoo.
let me blog like normally so nobody would think im going to commit suicide like ivan said.haha
i watched rule #1 today with weihong
nice!kelvin tong's horror movies not bad, except the one where it starred michelle chia's boyfriend whatshisname?haha(:
i haven't watched horror movies in a long long time.just yeah.still my favourite genre(:
pay money to scare myself.hobby can?
weihong is very sweet haha(:
him:you kai xin yi dian ma?
me: you ba.
him: na jiu hao.
(:
the home phone rang, picked up.honeymooner called.obviously sobbing, i just want to give him a kick in the face honestly.
the joy/pain of letting someone cry over you makes you just want to love him more and more and more.
than it only goes downhill from there.
why am i so realistic?
let me blog like normally so nobody would think im going to commit suicide like ivan said.haha
i watched rule #1 today with weihong
nice!kelvin tong's horror movies not bad, except the one where it starred michelle chia's boyfriend whatshisname?haha(:
i haven't watched horror movies in a long long time.just yeah.still my favourite genre(:
pay money to scare myself.hobby can?
weihong is very sweet haha(:
him:you kai xin yi dian ma?
me: you ba.
him: na jiu hao.
(:
the home phone rang, picked up.honeymooner called.obviously sobbing, i just want to give him a kick in the face honestly.
the joy/pain of letting someone cry over you makes you just want to love him more and more and more.
than it only goes downhill from there.
why am i so realistic?
what we could have been, 1:05 AM.
Monday, March 10, 2008
fuck
i really really hate this feeling inside me:(
really don't know what caused it either
DAMN EMO!
i never feel this way ever, well not in the recent years anyway
i don't think i can look sad outside, like how?it doesn't sound very logical.but i really don't think i can.to everyone and even me, im like a happy happy person.i want the people around me to be happy too(: i think all of them are.
so its a little fucked up that i feel this way
anyway im alone doesn't matter, doesn't affect anyone
so i can just die off inside and nobody cares
i feel like eating maggi mee maybe that will make me happier
i really really hate this feeling inside me:(
really don't know what caused it either
DAMN EMO!
i never feel this way ever, well not in the recent years anyway
i don't think i can look sad outside, like how?it doesn't sound very logical.but i really don't think i can.to everyone and even me, im like a happy happy person.i want the people around me to be happy too(: i think all of them are.
so its a little fucked up that i feel this way
anyway im alone doesn't matter, doesn't affect anyone
so i can just die off inside and nobody cares
i feel like eating maggi mee maybe that will make me happier
what we could have been, 11:34 PM.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
i went out alone today.
i cannot believe i did.
i cannot believe i did.
what we could have been, 9:31 AM.
felt super lousy today.
tried to doll up to make myself feel better,before going out.
but only felt worse.
i was crimping my eyelashes then i just cried.
i don't know why too.
tried to doll up to make myself feel better,before going out.
but only felt worse.
i was crimping my eyelashes then i just cried.
i don't know why too.
what we could have been, 12:47 AM.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
okay thats it im on a diet.starting monday
what we could have been, 1:38 PM.
i just woke up and..
I AM DAMN FRIGGIN TIRED!:(
but yesterday was damn fun!took super alot of photos.
battled alot, lost terribly.but we didn't lose without af fight okay!haha.
im losing my voice even though i drank water before i went to ice cream land.
anyway am still super tired, like brain dead i don't want to move away from my bed.
zoo was really fun, but could have been better if everybody came/came back.really!
its all in the name of fun and games.we've all known each other for so long and definitely much more better than this(: like come on okay?
white tigers are like the most beautiful living breathing moving creature on earth.very very pretty.prettier than women.like you can stare at them and really observe them, they're that beautiful!white tiger is animal of the day.haha((:
anyways, gwen and tiong kiat is really sweet together(: really happy that tiong kiat has a girlfriend.don't know why but i feel like i see tiong kiat grow up.. haha.in my heart, he's always be a little boy..whose husband material!haha(: xin and me use to discuss and dissect who is husband material in class and he's always number 1 on our list.he's a nice boy, good for you gwen(:
okay you can say i don't understand.i don't understand as much as you do.
maybe i cannot stand it.cos i never felt it?haha.. i don't know really.just really felt like i've wasted 3 years of my life for nothing gained but anger,sadness and endless disappointments.now looking back, i just feel such release.i feel like my responsibility is fufiled.i know im not suppose to feel this way, but i was really tired and unhappy.the happy times only happened cos i wanted them to happen, you can say i had to do everything to make them happen for me.imagine a direct copycat for a birthday present, how happy would you feel?no heart at all right?shrugs.
i just want to stop taking care of everyone.and let someone take care of me instead.
stefanie says i need a older boyfriend.how can!everyone i know is about my age.
its a very confusing feeling.
a lot of times i need someone there but i don't need the commitment now.
a lot of times i see everyone being in pairs, and i secretly wished i had someone too.
but minus the arguments and petty fights.
the process is what matters, however it ends if you had put your heart in it and know very clearly the other person has as well.that's good enough.
i enjoy doing things for the people i love(: seeing them smile makes me smile.don't know why.haha
boyfriends are not found,
boyfriends just happen(:
what we could have been, 1:19 PM.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
friday no school!
yay!im going to the zoo in like 11 plus hours!(:
gonna take shitload a lot of pictures with probably everything that lives,moves or breathes.HAHA
fun fun fun.
planned this trip for the longest time, finally 7th march is here!
cannot contain this excitement.
I THINK, I JUST MIGHT WAKE UP CALL EVERYONE.hohoho.
yay!im going to the zoo in like 11 plus hours!(:
gonna take shitload a lot of pictures with probably everything that lives,moves or breathes.HAHA
fun fun fun.
planned this trip for the longest time, finally 7th march is here!
cannot contain this excitement.
I THINK, I JUST MIGHT WAKE UP CALL EVERYONE.hohoho.
what we could have been, 7:32 AM.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
我知道你知道，但我不能说出来。
因为我知道, 如果我一说, 我们感情一定改变
and i don't want to risk it
i rather we stay stagnant at this stage, than lose you and lose this.
有你真好(:
因为我知道, 如果我一说, 我们感情一定改变
and i don't want to risk it
i rather we stay stagnant at this stage, than lose you and lose this.
有你真好(:
what we could have been, 12:15 AM.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
without you; i am nothing(:
was chatting with a dear friend on msn, use to have some rather rough patches with her.
but we're okay now.
she had some friendship woes, the worse kind.where all you can do is crash and burn, the kind where you are stuck in the middle, simply because there is nothing much there can be done to change the situation.
im lucky i have real friends that are always always there, even though i think im quickly losing one. :(
i realise friendship is the most important thing, after love.
im not talking about love love.im talking about love in general.
P.S: i will always love you.
what we could have been, 8:19 AM.
Monday, March 3, 2008
not feeling well today; feeling slightly fever-ish and nauseous.
not sleeping enough, every night busy chatting on msn.
mama threaten to take my laptop away and never return it,
honey say i must sleep at 9pm.like real.HAHA(:
its times like this when i need someone to give me a hug, someone to let me sa-jiao to, to be teng by someone, to let someone take care of me, for a change and just do nothing.
when i can stop being myself for awhile, just awhile.im happy (:
that's how easily contented i am.
not sleeping enough, every night busy chatting on msn.
mama threaten to take my laptop away and never return it,
honey say i must sleep at 9pm.like real.HAHA(:
its times like this when i need someone to give me a hug, someone to let me sa-jiao to, to be teng by someone, to let someone take care of me, for a change and just do nothing.
when i can stop being myself for awhile, just awhile.im happy (:
that's how easily contented i am.
okay.i have a inner cheena pok& a inner ah lian.haha
what we could have been, 1:49 AM.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
10 FAVORITES
Favorite Color: red
Favorite Food: milk pan
Favorite Band: linkin park
Favorite Song: realise by colbie caillat
Favorite Movie: secret
Favorite Sport: shopping
Favorite Season: summer
Favorite Day Of the Week: friday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: strawberry cheesake from haagen daaz
Favorite time of the day: 2am
CURRENTS
Current Mood: Bored
Current Taste: saliva
Current Clothes: tee-shirt
Current Toenail Color: transparent(:
Current Time: 11:56pm
Current Surroundings: my room
Current Thoughts: how much i changed alot since 2006; i copied this from pinkjaggedpill(:
Current Hairstyle: luan hairstyle.haha
Current Weather: cool
7 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: jean low
First Enemy: i can't remember.
First Pet: maggie the rat.
First Crush: can't remember.joel?
First Music: the disney cd from macdonald's
First Car: still no car!
First Job: auntie jeeva's place
7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: 4th jan 2007
Last Drink: expired apple juice
Last Car Ride: taxi counted?last saturday.
Last Sms Receive: today.8.44pm from jx
Last Cell phone call: nobody called today:(
Last CD: secret soundtrack
Last Girlfriend/Boyfriend: samuel teo yang hao.sucks.
6 HAVE YOU EVER
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your BestGuy/Girl Friends: YES.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: steal eraser from primary school bookshop counted?
Have You Ever gone Sky diving: i don't want!
Have You Ever gone Skinny Dipping: soon soon.
Have You Ever Been on TV: NEVER!
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You didn't know?: nonono.
5 THINGS
1 Thing You're Wearing: hairpin
1 Thing You've Done Today: pang sai
1 Thing You Can Hear Right Now: ka chua downstairs
1 Thing You Can't Live Without: money
1 Thing You Do in your spare time: go out and play!
4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN YESTERDAY
1. tiong kiat's place
2. James tan's veterinarian clinic
3. PAW
4. town(:
3 PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE
1. bert
2. honey
3. ah jie
2 CHOICES
1. black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
1 CRUSH
1.don't tell you.
Favorite Color: red
Favorite Food: milk pan
Favorite Band: linkin park
Favorite Song: realise by colbie caillat
Favorite Movie: secret
Favorite Sport: shopping
Favorite Season: summer
Favorite Day Of the Week: friday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: strawberry cheesake from haagen daaz
Favorite time of the day: 2am
CURRENTS
Current Mood: Bored
Current Taste: saliva
Current Clothes: tee-shirt
Current Toenail Color: transparent(:
Current Time: 11:56pm
Current Surroundings: my room
Current Thoughts: how much i changed alot since 2006; i copied this from pinkjaggedpill(:
Current Hairstyle: luan hairstyle.haha
Current Weather: cool
7 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: jean low
First Enemy: i can't remember.
First Pet: maggie the rat.
First Crush: can't remember.joel?
First Music: the disney cd from macdonald's
First Car: still no car!
First Job: auntie jeeva's place
7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: 4th jan 2007
Last Drink: expired apple juice
Last Car Ride: taxi counted?last saturday.
Last Sms Receive: today.8.44pm from jx
Last Cell phone call: nobody called today:(
Last CD: secret soundtrack
Last Girlfriend/Boyfriend: samuel teo yang hao.sucks.
6 HAVE YOU EVER
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your BestGuy/Girl Friends: YES.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: steal eraser from primary school bookshop counted?
Have You Ever gone Sky diving: i don't want!
Have You Ever gone Skinny Dipping: soon soon.
Have You Ever Been on TV: NEVER!
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You didn't know?: nonono.
5 THINGS
1 Thing You're Wearing: hairpin
1 Thing You've Done Today: pang sai
1 Thing You Can Hear Right Now: ka chua downstairs
1 Thing You Can't Live Without: money
1 Thing You Do in your spare time: go out and play!
4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN YESTERDAY
1. tiong kiat's place
2. James tan's veterinarian clinic
3. PAW
4. town(:
3 PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE
1. bert
2. honey
3. ah jie
2 CHOICES
1. black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
1 CRUSH
1.don't tell you.
what we could have been, 7:52 AM.
My public blog!(:
Suddenly had the urge to start bloging again; it's not like i ever stopped.But yeah, reading someone else's made me want to have one again, too.
You can read my private blog over at wordpress.But for every secret that you read, and if i charged any one of you at 10 bucks per secret. I'll become a millionaire faster than you say missisippi.
I use to blog alot at pinkjaggedpill, at blogspot too.the habit died off eventually the spamming the haters were all too much.too much to handle.too much gossip.been too honest too(: it was serious shit at pinkjaggedpill.i was an angst-filled girl.the last post was dated dec 31 2006! Haha.
Blogspot is still the best place to blog.very user friendly, wordpress is not bad either.
I don't want to rant today.cos.. i simply do not have much to rant about.i slept til 2pm!shiok.practically wasted half the day away. Then log in to friendster.friendster friendster everyone 1st degree 3rd degree (stalker i know) than ah ha!her blog site.read like it was a tabloid.juicy!
Made me realise, i'm was never wrong about him.
Suddenly had the urge to start bloging again; it's not like i ever stopped.But yeah, reading someone else's made me want to have one again, too.
You can read my private blog over at wordpress.But for every secret that you read, and if i charged any one of you at 10 bucks per secret. I'll become a millionaire faster than you say missisippi.
I use to blog alot at pinkjaggedpill, at blogspot too.the habit died off eventually the spamming the haters were all too much.too much to handle.too much gossip.been too honest too(: it was serious shit at pinkjaggedpill.i was an angst-filled girl.the last post was dated dec 31 2006! Haha.
Blogspot is still the best place to blog.very user friendly, wordpress is not bad either.
I don't want to rant today.cos.. i simply do not have much to rant about.i slept til 2pm!shiok.practically wasted half the day away. Then log in to friendster.friendster friendster everyone 1st degree 3rd degree (stalker i know) than ah ha!her blog site.read like it was a tabloid.juicy!
Made me realise, i'm was never wrong about him.
what we could have been, 7:20 AM.
